Debra Reay

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You underestimated
The power of one’s mind
The strength and courage
Empowered with a force
Too strong for you
I am here, standing free
Living proof, I made it
Telling a truth that you dread
Naming and shaming
All freely and without fear
Mind and conscience
Clean, guilt-free, and driven

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Flying solo with a
Hearts happy dance
Seasons of foreverness
You created a weakless
Lass from the north
Someone who lives
In nobodies shadow
Despite your best efforts
To weaken her soul
The lass from the north is
Flying solo with a
Reason to carry on

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Was you
Not me
A child
I was
An adult
I grew to be
A hot mess
Created by
Trauma, you see
Chaos embroiled
Flitting here
And there
Relationships
Off and on
Trust and fear
Based within
My existence
Yet a feeling
Of none existence
No longer
A hot mess
She once was…

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She’s slowly
Re-capturing
Her life in
Full throttle
She crashed
She burned
Yet that didn’t
Keep her down
Nor did it stop her
She is but perfect
Though powerful
In this, here
Powerless world
Of utter chaos

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Memories eroding
From her imprisoned mind
Like threads of paper
Strewn into oxygen-filled air
Little scribbles
A constant reminder
Of each slap or
Word spat out at her
In hatred or desperation
A need to push the
Memories further away
To save her from
Her thinking's

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Trigger warning — Mentions of abuse

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I look back
For a moment
To remember
A fear you embedded
So deep inside of me
I’d need a chisel
To chip away
As to free my soul
You took from me
Moments lost
Each beating
Each time you
Forced yourself
Upon me
Lost me time
And innocence
The scars on my soul
Unhealed
Your words of vileness
Like a knife
Cut through
Each…

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Debra Reay

Debra Reay

Writer, Poet and survivor of childhood abuse! Author of poem's~A Child Unloved and Soul Destroyed. Hopefully one day, I will get a book published!