Ghosts of Winters past
From unloved she must have felt
To an object of utter hatred
Her soul battered black and blue
With words she heard and
Her name said in vain
She bled her tears into her pillow
Each night, followed by dread
Footsteps heard across the hall
Hearing whispering, calling her name
Knocking on her bedroom door
Her pleas ignored at every turn
As she wiped away her tears
Each morning, noon and night
The cycle repeats itself
Maybe there was no way out
Christmas time was the worst
No ‘I love you' no hugs
Gifts meant nothing — never did
Because more than that was needed
A family to call her own
Finally, putting her life back together
While left with all her scars
Her abusers dead and no more pain
Only left with the memories of
Ghosts of winters past
Over 20 years ago my ordeal ended, yet it didn’t really end, because the after effects of trauma last a lifetime!
Anniversaries — Christmas, Birthday etc are the worst!
Self-love, self-care is important!!
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